Growing a person.

In March of this year, things were beginning to sprout up on the farm, and I started growing a person.  So many things have happened since – the peak season has come and gone, family and friends have visited and departed, all while this little boy has been diligently working in solitude, and now, with the days turned inward and our Christmas tree casting an inviting light on the den, we await his arrival, our grandest present.

Apricot Lane Belly Shoot 2015

I’ve been awed by how much patience and discipline this process requires and teaches.  It’s not a short trip, and in certain moments, I found myself begrudging the pigs for their less than 4 month gestation, while appreciating the cows a bit more for their 9+ month wait, like us.  The beginning of this road was met with an unparalleled tiredness that taught me lessons of surrender and kindness with myself.  The settled times of this relatively mild pregnancy introduced an inner knowing with a constant, welcomed point that I am important, even when I’m not “doing,” by the external world’s definitions. The hard times were dynamic because highs and lows seem more potent during this vulnerable time.  A tough day, circumstance or even just an ache or pain felt more present and unavoidable.   However, centered within the nugget of each challenge sat the compassionate gift of renewed understanding.  Life’s lessons are often tucked within hard times, pregnant or not, but I found them more accessible in such a raw state.  And, I grew as this little one did.

Apricot Lane Belly Shoot 2015

I also gained an expansive appreciation for all that my husband is and does, more than ever before.  I noticed how he completes our unit, how hard he works, how much he cares.  I love him.

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And now, just 8 days away from my due date of December 20, I just wait.  I’ve scaled back my work to mainly just emailing and unavoidable things.  I’m reminding myself that I am still important, though not in the same ways that I have been.  I worry a little, here and there, about the delivery, finding my way after the birth and remembering who I was and am in the process.  But, mostly, I am excited, ready and thankful for this long runway because God knows what he is doing to give our big brains time to get acclimated.  So, I try to embrace this sweet sliver of remaining time with a centered spirit, as all those who love me have suggested.

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17 comments


  • Candy

    Fantastic!

    December 12, 2014
  • Much love to you and Jon on this new journey. You are a wonderful person and you will be an even better mommy. Love and light on that special day! xx

    December 12, 2014
  • Cristine

    I wish you a safe delivery. How enjoyable this reading was! From here, we will keep sending you our best wishes!

    December 12, 2014
  • Betsy & John Radcliffe

    We are so happy for you, Molly, and for John as you embark on THE best adventure of your lives. Being raised on a farm is every boy’s dream….and I know that photographer John is going to find so many opportunities to capture several special events, under the theme of Baby Meets Nature. God Bless you all….and Merry, Merry Christmas from all the Radcliffes in Pittsburgh!

    December 12, 2014
  • Megan Schrecengost

    Molly, this took my breath away. Brought tears to my eyes. I love you and thank you for sharing this experience so perfectly.

    December 12, 2014
  • Sally

    Beautiful post, Molly.

    December 12, 2014
  • Faith

    So very happy :) for you both!

    December 12, 2014
  • Tammy Souza

    Big Hugs to all.!! You are beautiful. God is presenting you with the greatest gift! Life and love!! John and you are going to be awesome parents!! Our heartfelt prayers that your bundle of joy will be here soon!

    December 12, 2014
  • Beth Deeley

    So beautifully expressed Molly. I can’t wait to watch the next chapter of your lives unfold. We love you all so much!!!

    December 12, 2014
  • Jean Desvernine

    Your words left me speechless. They came from your heart ( as well as your hormones too).
    Without a doubt, if farming does pan out, you will have much success with the pen! Looking forward to hearing more of your beautiful words Molly, and in the meantime, rest up!

    December 12, 2014
  • Jennifer L.

    It is amazing time of your life. enjoy every minute you can, Even considering the lack of sleep you will be experience soon!! We wish you our best… from Georgia.

    December 14, 2014
  • Wishing you all the best on this new life adventure, and what a time it will be — I promise you. You will wonder how you even lived before, it will be hard to imagine. All the life and everything that grows around you……all of the critters and sprouts will have an even deeper meaning. Bless you all, the work you are doing and your new family. Revel in every moment! You are in the time of your life!!

    December 14, 2014
  • Donna DeVries

    That is one very fortunate baby who will enter your lives very soon……growing up in the Apricot Lane farm environment surrounded by loving parents and wonderful animals…….perfection!

    December 14, 2014
  • michelle

    and on that farm a babe was born……!
    what a special place…….

    December 15, 2014
  • Ian Magnus

    Glad tidings indeed! Blessing to you & John and all that you create and nurture. You are an inspiration.

    December 17, 2014
  • Karen

    God’s little blessings tucked away until that perfect time when God declares a child to be born. May you find strength in the Lord as you prepare your body, heart, mind and soul for this precious gift of life you are bringing into the world.

    Even though I only know you through your blog, I know you and John are going to be amazing parents. You have so much love for your farm and your animals, your precious baby boy will be blessed beyond compare.

    Praying for you, for a safe delivery and for the blessing of rest during this most wonderful time of the year. Enjoy every moment and treasure your precious gift from above.

    James 1:17

    December 17, 2014
    • Molly Chester

      Thank you Karen! We really appreciate the prayers and support.

      December 20, 2014

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